If i call out your real name, will my voice reach you like a twang in the heartstrings?
Stripping the pseudonym down to the core
Leaving what's left naked and vulnerable, yet pure.
Searching for the you that's reachable
But ransacking for my completion.
Because my words are leaving me, and then parts of me being exchanged for something else new, something so raw that i've never felt before; parts of me leaving, eatching away; losing what was from the past yet gaining something new.
Growing somewhat stronger yet somewhat weaker at the same time; how can this be?
Because my words are leaving me, only cries that echo repeatedly are left.
These cries plead, beg, yet are silent.
Cries of the same words over and over again.
Same words; because i know not how to speak anything else.
Even if i call you, you won't hear.
Never will.
When such a distance never seems to close.
Bittersweet crips, belonging to fragments of a shattered smile;
One that tries so hard to stay on and shine to the world,
Yet one that falls so easily when a back is turned.
When it's not all that simple though wished to be.
Then...
How it escapes your mouth, you breath out slowly.
A beautiful rhythm that no one else dances to,
Like an enchanting melody amongst the wind,
You play, you tease
Then it all breaks down.
Dark lingering eyes tempting to draw closer
Inch by inch,
Tracing jawlines of the perceived perfection,
Lips dry, but
Thirsty
To hold what was never there
A strength that could never be given by an individual.
To cling on so
Desperately,
Begging for release of this torture
But knowing it never happens
Fingers grasping the thin and cold; Free me.
To go beneath the skin,
And to fill up and answer what words and touches won't.
To entwine in the spirit.
Screams; inaudible when you take over.
So sinful it should be left unspoken.
Stepping out of it,
But into the dark.

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode

A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.

♥REITA,
just because.

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